never give up. you should try find some way to get a job. as you are posting here you have access to the internet and should think about learning to code, learning good spoken english and then going to a west or northern european school to study for free. while you study, you can try to get a job coding in your area of interest. live below your means and then invest in plebbit. plebbit is at 12m market cap. in 2-3 years it will be likely over 1b market cap which is at least x100. avoid harmful habits like drugs, drinking or smoking. adopt good habits like daily exercise, good diet (meat, milk, eggs, vegetables, fruit), reading and a creative expression (music, writing, painting, dancing). try to join clubs in your area of interest so you can socialize. life will get better for those you want it to get better and who put in the necessary time and effort to make life better.